Yes, I am studying A Levels in Tunku Abdul Rahman University College now. I won't say it is the best thing that happened in my life...it's just something very new to me and I admit that I have learnt quite a bit (besides the information overload in classes). I'm now in my fourth week and I think it is a pleasant experience. So far so good. You would know the feeling if you've been there, done that.
If you've been a secondary student at least in the last decade, you would know that in the midst of all the prep and stress before SPM, almost everyone would make plans to be done after the "great examination". Something like a bucket list "to be completed after SPM and before I enter college". I did have many things in mind. People around me would also get excited about the stuff they planned....and so did I. I was kind of doubting the realization of the things I had planned because of disappointing experiences after PMR...but nevertheless I went ahead and dreamt, for it was really encouraging me to study like crazy.
Have you ever felt that after a month of exams, your personality seems to have changed? Because I think I did...I think I forgot many things that I can't remember now...my brain seemed to have compressed the not-so-important stuff into a zip file to make way for all the information I was shovelling into my head....ugh. Anyway, I think in the process, I forgot the plans I had, and the only thing that stayed in my mind was to get a loooongg sleep after the ordeal (if you read the previous posts, you would know what I did to my body).
In short, I didn't get to do a lot of stuff I planned. Maybe it is good. Because those stuff probably weren't going to help me grow as a person anyway. And then in the blink of an eye, I found myself stepping into the four walls of TAR UC, applying for a Cambridge A Level course in science, feeling suddenly so small in this huge campus.
Studying here, I came across many surprises. One, was the friends I made. It started with one, then it became two and then ten. Mutual friends is something that is really important here. If you know this guy, he would introduce you to his friends. There were people with mutual friends I had known years ago. And there were those random people that would suddenly be there to play basketball with you and then after that you won't see them for the rest of the week.
I was really happy to have a friendly roommate...I did hear of stories of people who had problems with their roommates...so I am just thankful to God for this great roomie of mine. He is the one who kind of kick-started me to a great college life. Too bad I arrived when he was having his exams. D:
It was in college that I realised that even little stuff in your life like a craving for supper could help you make a new friend. Even the smallest similarities between you and a stranger can cause a friendship to blossom. It was here where I discovered that I had picked up many social skills during the three years I went for d'NA. d'NA, the camp I mentioned in the previous post...was a preview for me of what college would be like. I'm really grateful that I had the opportunity to go for that camp:) I realised I had picked up some speaking skills and also become a braver person. I am able to pay attention for longer periods of time and learnt the basic art of asking questions. You see, I have simplified my communication skills into formulas, because it never comes naturally to me...haha. I just wonder whether using formulas for socializing would be counted as insincerity? But hey, at least I'm trying :D
Thank you Jesus! I managed to meet a lot of Christians. And I haven't even attended the Christian Fellowship yet! It seems to me that God has been putting a lot of His people in each other's way so that they would bump into each other :) He is really an amazing God...really indescribable.
Well, time forbids me to write too long. I have a biology quiz coming soon. So I just would like to thank God for all of the people I have been privileged to call friends and family in my life. You all have impacted me because you all have acted as mirrors me to see my true self, be it in the way you guys have glared at me, teased me, chided me, disciplined me or ignored me. Never said this before, but I have a habit of scrutinizing every mistake I make. I knew long ago that I am and will always be my worst enemy. Thus, I have seen my flaws. In my imaginations, I constantly put a gun to my head and shoot myself. Then I try again and see what the results are. Yes, I'm creepy. Don't worry, I am hyperboling.
My hope for this year in college, is firstly for me to grow in my walk with God, so that I can be an example of a sinner saved by his reliance on God's grace, not necessarily for people to follow, but for me to reflect on and thank God for the changes he has done in me. I really hope at the same time I may be bold and spread God's love to all the people that are just like I was some time ago, people who still haven't found the path to salvation from sin. I really hope that I would cry as much Jesus did for the lost people, and I sincerely hope that I would be willing to persevere and be patient with them. Most of all, I hope I won't be a hypocrite....because people have always seen Christians as hypocrites. Yes, it's not simple, but it is still a very easy task compared to what Jesus did on the cross.
Oh, and I hope that I can be a little more hardworking and start studying now...;)
