Just another testimony about how God has been good to me.
Late nights, brain overheating, and backaches. I don't know how I did it. It was the ultimate plan of last-minute studying...
How I got through that? aha, you wanna know my secret? Nothing. There's no secret ingredient. Nah, just joking. I prayed a lot and studied like a madman. Last-minute studying never is a good plan. But it happened.
How it happened? Obviously, the only answer is procrastination. "Oh no, SPM is 3 months away....""only 2 months left?!" ...etc. etc. Many times I would pick up the book ...and doze off or get distracted by something. Worse of all, I used the thought that this happens to everyone as a reason to slack and not to encourage myself.
Anyway, despite all the plans to start after trials yadayada... it was only towards the last four weeks before the exam when I started to do serious stuff. Serious but dumb stuff. I did notes. Don't be fooled, notes are a trap. You'll be better off studying the whole book and doing exercises. Especially for history. But ironically, there I was wasting time writing notes for history at the worst time possible without knowing I was sealing my fate. (Notes are very important, but there are some subjects that are just....un-note-able, even more when your exam is coming in a month's time.)
By the time the day of the exam dawned, I just left to it to God. Well, the language subjects weren't the ones I feared. I was getting desperate about History. Proof? I dreamed about the textbook every night. It's times like these where you need a friend to study with (cause you don't know what to study because you haven't started anything). I did and I guess it was really helpful. It was the first time, in fact, when I managed to learn so much in a group study...
The next bomb that dropped was moral. I kept looking over my shoulder, but my friends all seemed to be perfectly composed, writing pretty aggressively on their papers. Did I miss out some news about the change in format? Ever since that paper there was significant change of perspective in my mind about this exam, I started thinking about the things that could happen in the department and marking center.
Science week was the time I truly pushed myself to the limits. It's the last week anyway, so why not push all the way? Just to give you an idea of how this week went: knowing I had a limited time left, I made a rough plan and did my best to keep to it. Then I failed so I made another plan. If I fail again, it becomes a tighter plan. Eventually, the plan becomes nearly impossible, like the aim to finish one page in half a minute to cover 120 pages in an hour. I planned to finish all three science subjects in three days, it seemed possible to me when I thought about it. It wasn't.
I took three days to finish physics. Well, I did watch a movie during that time, haha. That left me only 16 hours left to study for the next paper: Chem. And the same amount of time for Bio. Well, I did manage to cover almost everything for Chemistry, by staying up until 12 and waking up at 3 am to study until daybreak. Biology, the subject I've been studying the most before exam, and the one I was determined to get a good result for, suffered a gloomier fate. The whole of form 5 I studied b4 exam was 65% forgotten. I managed to finish only form four by staying up until 2am and waking up at 4am.
Don't be like me. I was paying for the time-wasting I did for two years. I'm just grateful God was merciful and was there for me.
Thank you mom and pa for taking care about the other stuff like food and encouragement.
Never again. But no regrets. Whatever the results, I did my best in the little time I had left.
