everyone talks about achievements and failures, new chapters and new beginnings. nobody talks about what happens in the process. I guess these things should remain personal eh? or do they just seem relatively unimportant?
in betweens suck. deciding which one of two paths to take, in the midst of recovery from a tragedy, the moment when you just run out of things to say, waiting for a reply or a sign or news or results or morning to come..., that part when you are middle of writing something and suddenly your mind goes blank, an hour left to go in an examination....
so yeah i am stuck in this middleofnowhereland wondering what to do and daydreaming my life away. Not really, I am filling my day with as much useful and fun things to do but there's still the burning question of what to do in the future. "But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things (daily necessities) will be provided for you. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, because tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." (Matthew 6:33-34) At least I still have God to tell my worries to if I don't have anyone else.
Maybe you are interested in what I'm doing. I'm working with my dad doing data entry for his accounting firm, so blessed to get an office job so easily while my friends have to apply and wait for interviews. sorry no more place in the office btw. I might be going to volunteer at a hospital just to get exposure just in case I decided to accept my offer to imu to do medicine. If I accept I will be going in feb next year. next year is 2016 wow, I am afraid and nervous. anyway, to anyone in the same situation as me, where you feel you are being left behind while everyone is moving forward, hope can be found in the weirdest places. I am not making sense am I.
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