College ends. It was so subtle, and only now am I starting to feel it really sink in. After the coming trip to penang, and maybe a few more trips to kelana jaya, I'm pretty sure I'll be super emo.
Even my interview at IMU that I was suppose to get some answers from proved to be rather disastrous. I think, no, I'm pretty sure that I screwed up big. Screwed a hole in my image and then squashed a nut in there. I went in calm and confident, I was thinking, I am already not sure about anything so I most likely have nothing to lose.Wrong. Okay, it wasn't horrendous, I was able to deliver nicely and clearly. I am pretty sure I made them think that I was sure on following the medical line. But I'm not sure if they had faith in my potential and dedication. I totally misinterpreted the EQ question they gave. They asked "if I was a lecturer and if my students did well in their examination and then parents and students wanted to buy an expensive reward for me, would I receive the gift and why". I didn't think "expensive was a keyword". And I didn't answer what they wanted. I was trying to be honest, really putting myself in the lecturer's shoes, and how I would actually respond. So much for honesty. Get rekt la. I said I would take the gift. Number one mistake. I said that I didn't want to waste the students' efforts in buying the gift. They asked what if people thought badly of me, that I was accepting a bribe. I totally wasted breath explaining that I wasn't accepting bribe, they already got their results and I would still treat them equally, that I don't want them to feel bad by not accepting the gift. Mistake number two. I should have just blurted out something like you can't please everybody. Fits the medical profession, fits real life, it's legit. Simple. Nope, I didn't think of it because I blanked out. sigh.
Well, other than that, I am pretty happy about how events have been unfolding around me. I think I am going to get answers soon. I just need to push myself a little more to pray more, read more, look out more....
Anyway, I really pray for my friends that they will do well too. I know that I don't mention stuff like how much I appreciate you guys and I am very blunt and straightforward sometimes because I was tired of sugar coating my words, but I'm sorry and regret those moments of too much honesty. Thanks, friends. Honestly, people have taught me a lot. Speaking of friends, thank God for family too. So yeah, my everyday life is just learning always from the people around me.
haih, fun fact, I dunno what to write. Even though I know I am getting boring, I really dunno what else to write.
From the anime Shigatsu wa Kimi no Uso.
One lie can do so much sia.
I'm curious, why doesn't Arima want to play Ravel?
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